In memories.

Today is my last day working at ISD,tears dropping from my eyes when looking for the last time my workplace. For 6 years, I being bold, patient, be as positive as I can for survive in this company. I never thought today is the day for me.

Flashback,I came to Penang with empty hand and still wondering what should I do if I can’t find any job, with few ringgits in my wallet I’m hoping to get job as soon as possible.  While waiting my friend interviewed, I was sitting at waiting area and reading the newspaper and I saw advertisement that they hiring for Interior Designer; with one called, I get called for interviewed the next day.

When my friend finally start work, I tried to figure out the place with taking bus, yes, I remembered that day how sweating I am, walked non-stop looking for the bus and exact place. Only Allah know , when I’m almost want to giving up. After found the office and interviewed by them,they asked came for second interviewed for consideration.After interviewed, I walked around at Komtar and applied job at MacDonald as my back up plan. Yes, I never give up as I always think for another option.

Finally, on July 2007, I started work with this company.One years period, I felt want give up with this job, being underestimate by senior, language barrier since most of the contractor spoke in Chinese, my lacking experience on site and list go on. But I keep told myself, I need to give myself to try and be patient since there is no easy job in this world and at same time I need money. Since, I’m made decision to be independent, so I’m totally dependable to my monthly salary.

For myself, from days to month and to years I’m always in process of learning and gain more knowledge in this field. I keep on focus for works even I always had feeling to resign and looking for better job.

I keep seeing people come and go at this company, and never thought finally today is the day.I made decision after one of my best friend told me, I deserved better position, salary and everything and that moment I felt someone is slap on my face. For 6 years, my salary like fresh graduate, the ugly truth office politics I faced for like everyday, boss hardly appreciated my hard works, overloaded works that killing my social life.

Finally, I tried my luck with sending resume for certain company.

Alhamdulillah, I got the job, work with big company in Kuala Lumpur which is listed company. I’m grateful.

But, how bad the company treated me, I believe, there is no perfect in this world. You need to give yourself and company gain trust and work together. That all.

I’m pretty sad for leaving Penang; I had spent my life for like 9 years. 3 years to pursued my degree and 6 years for working life. Such a long journey and soon I’m going to start new life at new office, friends and environment.Something that I wish for my future,for better life. InsyaAllah.

I will be miss my good friends here, they really good friend who share my bittersweet memories. Even though, we are different race, religion but they really like family to me. I’m glad to having them in my life.  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thing has changed,sooner or later.

Finally my wish to changing job becomes reality. I had been stayed in Penang for almost 9 years, Penang is like my first home to me and now I’m going to say “bon voyage”. No place can compare with Penang; I love this place so much, love spending my weekend with hiking to the beach, walking at heritage town area and the foods!­

So, I still have 3 weeks before leaving Penang for good. I’m busy packing my stuff and trying to sell some of my furniture as for today I managed to sell my fridge with good price. Well, at least can cover my transportation expenses.

Ok, put aside first for my story “changing new leaf”.

Yesterday evening I went to Big Bad Wolf at Penang Time Square and managed to grab two books only. We came quite late and to explore that place, I believe you need to spend for one day at least. I felt like kids in candy shop, books are everywhere and it was so tempting!

This year plan is Bangkok and Tokyo-Korea on November. So ,this one will be next! In sya Allah..:)

Another book for my soul and preparation as Muslim, I bought this book from my mother as she selling some religion books at her shop.

 

Since, I had been away for quite long from blogging; so tonight I will share some of event happened for past months.

 

 

My two dear friends just got married! I'm so happy for both of them. I'm wishing them for forever love and all the best for new life as husband and wife.

 

Never look back, except for an occasional glance, look ahead and plan for the future. Success is not built on past laurels, but rather on a continuous activity. Keep busy searching out new ideas and, experimentally, keep ahead of the times, or at least up with them

 -Dorothy Draper-

One of the best quote describe what I'm facing now.Design is all about the hard work, taking the effort to think new ideas,re-think what the boss told you and take it as challenge rather than complaining that boss being unfair to you.I had been that shoes,I'm still struggling for 5 years until now.

 

I guess this month is not good month for me at all.Everything was ruined because of some people really make me pissed off.
First,I don't understand why people like to care if that person not married yet.Such a pity statement and pity with your mind set.God give you a life to achieve and follow the path you choose and still busybody about other people life?Goshh.,seriously this person need to brainwash maybe with Clorox i guess?

I admit that I'm easy to get mad.Yes,can you hear this word?
Once you reach my boiling point ,you can see a different perspective of my side.I just can't stand anymore.I tried to keep for so long and finally just because of one mistake i really can't take it at all.I know everyone have their busy with the life, works and etc.But please considerate if you can't make it,just tell me.Don't keep so long until like 3 weeks to inform me.It's all about work attitude.

And today my boss did it again.She keep asking me,what other designer doing?It totally remind me 2 years ago and because of this,one of the designer not satisfied with me.Trying to back up what are they doing sometimes really killing me because i've been working with them so long and we are close.I really hope that my boss not "ambush" other designer after this.Working with this kind of invironment totally make me tired.Yes,tired.

Handphone and me.

For the record,I'm not so good in using the technology device especially when I'm holiday or back to hometown.

Sometimes when I'm away,I will remind some of my friends that I will be not in touch with my phone, mail and facebook.Seriously.

Especially when I'm at hometown,I will keep my phone at my room and leave it until like I feel like want to go and check on it.Bad attitude huh?

Not like other people will carry their phone everywhere.

For some reason,I just need a privacy when I'm at hometown,spending time with my family and enjoying my  rest day.That all.

I should say,you are lucky if I replying your mail,sms or call if I'm away.Forgive me if I'm so arrogant or selfish.That, who I am. In one year, i can count how many times I go back to hometown for visiting my family and for some reason I prefer not get in touch with any technology device especially phone.

So,I'm apologizing for those feel irritating if I'm not answering the call, replying the mail or sms.

Not so up-to-date my phone.As long can make a phone call and Sms,that should be enough for me. Stingy me? I'm not.

 I just like to wait until the phone spoil and I can change a new one. My previous phone history with me was 5 years. I'm really good in keep my stuff.That all.

Plan to Plan

Short update before I go to my bed.Pretty late actually because I need to wake up earlier to have my "sahur". Beside busy with work, I'm planning to have short trip with my colleagues after Hari Raya to Hatyai,Thailand only 3 days and 2 night.

 I'm counting for my next trip to Hatyai,craving for the Thai food especially this one,"Somtam".Yummyliciuos! 

Now, I'm doing research for my Chinese New Year trip next year to Bangkok and I plan to travel by overland and cross to Cambodia. Still on progress by reading traveler blog and Lonely planet,and still not sure who can join me for this trip.

Winter trip will be end of next year to Korea,which is included with Jeju Island trip.Still figure out the cost since I try my best to cut down the cost and find the best way to travel around that country.So far, the only person will be join is Hirda,my best travel partner!

That for now,my blog about Japan still pending until now.Really need a good time to blog about Japan.

Till then! 

xoxo!

My unforgettable memories.

After attending the assembly BERSIH 3.0 at Penang,i went to Tesco for paid my Broadband bill,duhh.i need to be update what had happen in everywhere especially in Kuala Lumpur where the major BERSIH 3.0 happen.

For myself,I stand for what I understand,what i believe even we are not in "same page".If you do not support,you no need to support.Simple as that,if you feel want to provoke people what their believe,please give some facts.Easy right.

For those support BERSIH 3.0,please do.No harm at all,nothing can change what you stand for,that the reason why i keep tell to some people.I know you care, but please understand what you stand for, don;t keep posting BERSIH 3.0 without knowing what the purposes.
Understand,read,watch and do some cross checking before you support for something.

The green shirt joined to support BERSIH 3.0 too. (Green for anti-LYNAS)

Another coolness shop support BERSIH 3.0

They asked me what i get from BERSIH 3.0.My answer , SATISFIED!.
I voiced up my what I believe, so PM please do your job,i'm sick with you "act".

BERSIH 3.0 rally happen peacefully in Penang unlike in Kuala Lumpur when some citizen get beaten by police, tear gas and a lot cruelness happen.Yes,i'm not there but i had friends who update me.Alhamdulillah,she's fine same goes with her family.

"Don't ask what country do for you,ask what can you do for you country"

This is what I did for my country,for better and Clean ELECTION!

BERSIH! BERSIH!

Earthquake

While writing this note, I just received good news from Penangties. The tsunami alert is cancelled. Alhamdulillah.

This afternoon by 4.30pm, while I’m at my living hall and watching DVD, suddenly my body feels unbalance and I look at my window. Yupp, my window shaking too and I hold it for awhile and wondering what happen actually.

And I can hear from outside from my house, people asked to go out from our house..Get out! Get out! It is earthquake!

I rush changed my sleeping wear to jeans and t-shirt and grab my phone and lock the door as soon as possible. People keep running down from 20^th  floor heading to parking area. The situation really messes up and I can felt the nervous for everyone. I couldn’t imagine how my neighbors run down by staircase, they really old enough to run from 9^th floor to ground floor. But, from far I can see people keep helping them with give them space to walk slowly.

When reached the parking area, I am still clueless and felt dizzy. After 10 minutes, I called my friend at Georgetown to ask her situation. She felt it too.

After half hour, I went back to my house and read news. Yupp, there is earthquake in Indonesia 8.9 magnitude earthquake just happen in Acheh.Gulp! Again?

By 6.15PM I went for shower and ready for Asar prayer and after that my mom called me to ask the situation there. I said, I’m fine and just pray for my safe here. News said, they just warn us not to go near beach and careful for our own safe. In few minutes after talking the phone with my mum, 2^nd tremors happen again.

Goshh..What happen actually? This is really bad earthquake.

More worst when people keep spreading the news we can’t use the bridge by 9.00PM because will be tsunami by 9.15PM along the beach.Thank to Allah, That just rumors.

Now, I ‘m hoping there is no earthquake coming and please I don’t want tsunami happen again. It is really devastated enough when tsunami happen on 2004.

 

I learn something for today. I had pretty bad  day this afternoon and really make me confused, sad and angry at the same time.

When thing became so clueless, i make a phone called to my friend and asked her for the advised. Alhamdullilah, she listen to my problem and give some an ideas to me. I'm really appreciated her advise.Seriously.

So,at one point after listen to her advised and I sit for a while at my bed and said. Alhamdullillah.
I realized, how bad my day, how bad the situation and how bad the problem.
InsyaAllah, Allah will hear and will open some one heart to listen to us.To guide me.
To give some strength that I really need that time.
I'm glad to had her as best friend.Thanks again,Hirda.

Woot woot!

Quite long time I'm not update my blog,I guess so..!
Every time I'm doing my work, drive and watching TV my mind keep on said..oh no.. long time I'm not update my blog.So here I am.

I had made joke to my friends about my resolution this year.
I told them "This year I want to get more equality sleep to protect my eyes from wrinkles and "eyebag". And they asked me why? The reason is, I don't want be like "Chinese Opera on my wedding day just to hide the wrinkles and my tired eyes!..lol!

Ok,that just for fun actually. The actual one,I want to accomplish my plan to find a job in KL and start a new life there.That my plan for now.
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I start my first week of new year with busy tried to finish and hand over the project and until now still give me more headache, too many obstacles that I need to face off. Such a tiring actually.
I tried to be cool as I can but couldn't help myself to think how to finish this project as soon as possible.Pray so hard until now. My phone now is the biggest nightmare because i keep on hear people keep calling me until brought to my dream! Such a nightmare!

And my migraine come frequently now. The only thing i can do is taking sleep as soon as i felt my headache coming.That the best way for me now rather than depending to pills.

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God news! I will be have long breaks because of Chinese New Year. So, I can't wait to be home and meet my two little angels!
I booked a last flight on Friday night..oh yeah! I just can't wait to be home.
That all.Till we meet again.

New Year 2012!

Today it will be last day for 2011.Everyone getting excited with the new resolution and at somehow it is good to gain our spirit to get courage for facing the coming year.

For myself, I never have any list about the new resolution since every day I will make sure everything that I plan is working on even though I need to facing the obstacles.

This year is the best of my life. I get more in touch with my family, be a part for my best friend engagement and her wedding (thanks for make me get involved for your big days!), my friends, and even myself. I gain so much confident this year compared to previous years.

So, I have decide to make a new plan for own future. To be truth, it’s not easy for me to make this decision. I hardly sleep because of this too. Many thing buzz in my head to think what a sequences will happen. Yes, I already made a decision to start a new life in Kuala Lumpur soon. Once I got the job there, there is no turning back. I know I will be face lot obstacles with start a new life there. But, InsyaAllah , I believe I can do it.

Today, I will be joining BBQ party at my boss house and will continue with see the fire crackers at Straits Quay. I believe that will be awesome to end 2011 with a good food and friends!

Ok, so let’s we end our 2011 with a sweet memories! Happy New Year 2012!

Happy New Year!

p/s: New scarf I get from Christmas present! I just love to play with new style!

My blog became my favorite place for me to throw all my stress and problem here; at least I can release my mind.

First, for another 2 weeks, I will have new house mate, which is my friends was study with me at university. Fact that, I get used to be alone and never cross in my mind to have another housemate really disturbing my mind for week. Yet, people tend to consume that I need another person to accompany me, totally WRONG. Well, I keep saying I love my single life here, with no sharing thing and I had my own space that I totally LOVE it.

However, I can’t be so mean or selfish. When people need your help, just help, maybe this is her time; who knows next time it is me. Well, I hold her words for 3 month only. And that it.

So,chill!

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This week is super stress for me. Project, drawing that can’t finish for one day really make me exhausted.

Dealing with the most ass* management, seriously make my day worst. How could you complain so much about the houses that I’m doing the renovation? This apartment already 20 years old; and so funny when you make complain to the new owner after 20 years? Funny is it?

And, do you think the new owner want to listen that bullshit* for now? You have 20 years to complain before they change the owner, why you never do that? Seriously STUPID!

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It’s going to be year end soon. I know got so many project rushes before next year. But, I seriously hate the fact that I need to cut the leave and work on Saturday. Some more they want to bring the leave for next year for CNY. Despite, every year we need to cut the leave just for CNY close for one week. What the hell.
If really want to close for one week, why need to cut staff leave, seriously?

I’m not celebrating CNY, and even I can work as usual. Worst, I need to cut my leave for my own celebration, Hari Raya.

Not fair. Enough said.

November.

Welcome November!

There are lot things cross in my mind right now.

1.    Finally my project can start work. But it quite slow progress until I feel lost and so clueless where to start first. Like today, I got phone called from my plumber asking about the thing that I should order earlier for them.

*Slap to my face! How on earth I forgot to order the shower mixer and all that stuff?

How are they going start work without all that stuff?

2.    Doing commercial project really tiring. It kind like endless until you can see the structure of the building is built up at the site. If not, you will get call for everyday from the developer ask to change here and there. Gulpp!

3.    And, it gives the idea for your boss to change your ideas all the time. Keep remind me the design is must to be like this, like that. I’m like octopus doing this two commercial project.

4.    I’m going back to hometown this week Friday. Thanks to my friend, Alice helping me to book the bus ticket to Kuala Lumpur since the ticket to Seremban is sold out!

It short notice actually at my office when my boss announced the office will close on Monday for celebration of Hajj (Its public holiday)

If I know earlier, sure I will book the flight ticket, but to buy last minutes air ticket it’s totally expensive so I don’t have any other choice for taking bus.

5.    Hoping that my “Baju Kurung Kedah” will be ready before end of this month.

Oh yes, my friend wedding is early December!

6.    I just bought coupon voucher to do Manicure and Pedicure, so probably I will go before the wedding day. (27^th Nov is perfect day to do Mani and Pedi I guess).

7.    By 12^th or 19^th I need to keep myself available since the bride to be will be in Penang to do some last minute shopping.

8.    House cleaning too! My friend, Fenn will stay at my house for 2 days before the wedding of my friend, Syikin.

9.    Present for the groom and bride? Any ideas?

10.  I need to apply leave for two days.

11.  Open a new account bank at “Tabung Haji”.This time I know the place location, so no more lost track anymore.

12.  Go to Komtar and do search for the house availability, if any that can steal my heart away…. I’m going to apply for my future dream house!

13.  RESEARCH! HOMEWORK!

Yes! About JAPAN

 credit to : http://horizonpl.deviantart.com/art/Japan-Wallpaper-72951229

I’m going next year with my friend,Hirda. We are like backpacking there means no travel agent. So I really need to study place, hostel for backpackers, food, ticket and the most that I really concern is BUDGET ! How much it will be cost me for 10 days in Japan.?

*I already bought the ticket! So, JAPAN see you on summer next year!

Ok,happy mood! November be good with me!

Journey to Rawang.

On last Friday I went back for family gathering to attending my brother’s convocation at Putrajaya. It is long journey for me, woke up an early morning for make a new bank account at Tabung Haji really disappointed me. I don’t know where that place, drove all the way and even asked my friends to check from the Internet where the place located, I could not find at all.

I see my watch and its already 11.00am,so I cancelled to find that place and went to Sungai Dua to had earlier lunch before took bus to Weld Quay. At first, I want to park my car at USM there but when I see the signboard remind not to leave car there make me afraid to leave my car and I always believe if I had that kind of instinct I rather not to be.

So went back home and park my car and had about 10 minutes walked to nearest station bus with my 4” height wedges somehow burn my feet, bad choice actually but I had too because I need to attend my brother’s convocation. Less than 10 minutes waiting there, the bus came.

It just takes 45 minutes to reach Weld Quay from my house. But, honestly, I like to take bus to everywhere but at somehow it can really spoil the mood if the bus full of people and you even can’t breathe at all. From Weld Quay, I took ferry to go KTM Butterworth and it takes another 15 minutes if I’m not mistaken.

When I’m alone, I love this kind of journey. Taken different transportation to reach some place really make myself realize actually people still can go any place with some effort rather than you sit around, dependable and keep on buzz-ing don’t know how to take public transportation.

Penang,place that always in my heart.

Get out from ferry, another 15 minutes walk to KTM. Oh yes, I really had slow walk because I’m out of breathe and the weather really damn hot on that afternoon. But, thanks god! Entering the KTM’S office, the cold air-conditioner welcomes me! Fuhhh..: D

This is will be my first time ever taking train. I booked single seat since I hate to sharing seat with strangers. From Butterworth station, there are not so much people at this train and I choose the couch with not so much people. I love that. Enough said.

Most of my time, I re-read again the novel that I bought last April and I sleep too because the weather really cozy (It’s raining outside, I love rain so much)

But,but,but…and but.

The train stopped at Ipoh station to take another passenger and my sleep being disturbed with kids’ voice arguing about the seats. I knew, I’m being so meant with this family with not put on smile at my face. Ohh, please, what do you aspect if people are taking good sleep and being disturbed?

After 6 hours on train, finally I arrived at Rawang and I walked to the car park for meet my friend, Fenn to had dinner with her as promises.

I knew, she don’t mind to had long chat but when I see she keep get called and message from her boyfriend for asking when she will be at home make me realize I need to step back and I’m also feeling tired so we decided went home. With her kindness,she sent me to Tesco on her way back to her house.Well,Thanks,dear friend.

till we meet again....:)

Arrived at my sister house,at first I though can get earlier sleep.But, its wrong! My two little niece pretty excited seeing all people gathering and they both even dont want to sleep at all even its already 1.00am.

Too bad, my body and my mind really exhausted.Nite dear!

Baby Skin.

I look at my face.Gosshh...how come I got this pimple? Hate it so much!

I wish I can have skin like baby.

 See, my niece had nice skin, so jealous with her fair skin and no wrinkles. So perfect!

p/s:This saturday,will be attend my brother convocation.Yeah,he graduate for his Master!

I'm so pround of him.

It will be long journey for tomorrow,but i know i will love it.

Sunday..and being lazy.

While writing this note, I’m still at my bed. Sunday mood.

Nothing I need to rush for. I already take out the frozen chicken and don’t know what to cook for my lunch today. Any idea? Something simple to cook and can full my stomach?

Goshh, wish be at hometown right now, sure my mum will cook for me and food taste?  No need to ask, 5 star ok!

My weekdays, like upside down.  Busy with works until I missed my yoga class, went home late and now my shoulder pain. It is killing me softly.

My project started this week but so many obstacles i need to facing of for this project. At first regarding the leakage issue from the roof top, and list go on with the permission for renovation taking for one week to approve , clash with other designer for using same contractor , with the boss keep change her mind and ahhhhh..So many thing need to settle while the period for submission this project only for 2 month.

Yesterday, after work I went to Queensbay Mall for watched movie with friends, “Dream House”.

Totally boring for this movie!

Full stop.

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Ok another thing is,

I’m still waiting for the feedbacks regarding about the house application. Hope I can buy the small flat by next year. At least, I have my own place and no need to worry spent so much about rental from others. The max point, when I can design my own house. Ohh..I just can’t wait.

Even some people told me, why I’m so bother to own house and why don’t wait until you get married? Such a lame and cliché question.

Simple, I no need to wait until I get married or what. Life is so tiring if you wait for something that maybe can’t be happen. That what I want and the bottom line, I don’t like sharing! Worst, I can’t stay with other people even friend of mine. I love my own space.

I should stop now. My stomach keeps singing!

And I need to do some laundry too.

See you all next time.By the way,let me introduce new toy at my workstation!

 "RATTY"

By 7.45PM,While i want to shut down my computer I realize my screen computer still full of sticky notes for remind me about the pending works that need urgently..Sigh!

never ending...right?

So,forget it,continue tomorrow and it already passed my working hours....


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I just can't wait for tomorrow,have a dinner with my friends at The Ship,Feringgi!

(Ok,hope i can take some photo to upload here soon..xoxo!)

Ramadhan 2011

Salam Ramadhan to all Muslim.
Tomorrow will be start fasting month to all Muslim all around the worlds.Alhamdulillah, its coming again.
For this time,I'm hoping this time i can go often to mosque,for Solat Terawih.
Well,for food wise,I'm prefer soup,anything kind of hot soup for my dinner and for my breakfast,i just take tea and bread.Thanks god,I'm not big eater.hehehe..:)
But too bad, i can't start my fasting tomorrow because I'm in "menstruation or period". Still,i will fasting like everyone else maybe just take a water only and the good thing is,i will finish my yoga class tomorrow and will continue after fasting month.

I'm stuck with the unbalance feeling.And,again.
I'm thinking to resign and move to Kuala Lumpur.Work there and start a new life.But,I'm not sure how I'm going through, after 5 years i develop,built my own life and my career here alone.How I'm going to face a new phase if I'm going to KL.
Pro and Con sure have if I decide move to KL.
PRO- at least i stay near with my family and i can visit them often.The new environment,that for sure.
           Making new friends(well depends on situation), know new place and list go on.

CON-I need to learn a new things such as place, people there and i need to start from scratch again.

But, i guess my decision now more influence from what had happen to me at office nowdays.Yes, i'm not going to lie if i hate this person.I hate them until to hear their voice really make me irratating enough even to see their face.Indeed.
That the reason why i want to leaving my company.I'm not happy working with them,enough said.
And the worst part, when i realize so much thing not fair enough in my office.Called me jealousy or selfish.What so ever, but i built my own life with empty hand,without no one care so when I see some people complain how difficult them come to office,don't know how to this,there and so much complain really make me annoying enough.
Well,you not born in silver spoon so don't pretend to be the one.That it.




P/s:In swing mood.

When i think about it again.It's so funny how people  can realized that I'm look so relief after submit my Hotel' Project to the architect.I just can't stop smiling after knew that the last drawing need to be emailed. 
Talking about this project,
I'm almost want to give up when think about it.Seriously,almost give up when I'm so clueless to compile all my drawing and make it as a tender.I keep think positive as can,i put on my faith into it.
And,who knows,finally i can finish all the drawing, estimated around 50 drawing that i need to compile after facing so much problem,tense from boss and client need.

After done for this project, i get another Commercial project.And need to do as tender,Again.
Oh my...
I asked my boss to pass this project to others,at least others designer can learn to do tendering and co-operate with architect and M&E people. Process of learning right?
I never thought she can said, no one can do this project since i already did tendering before this.
Really want to scream out when i heard that...
After all, i take it from bright side,after working for 5 years at this company I learn a lot. Who know,one day i will open my own company with all this experiences.

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Ramadhan is coming soon.Can't wait for start fasting next month.At least, i can control myself taking coffee everyday..hehehe..hopefully.